Fellowship of the Drinks: A Gerardo's Epiphany

why do we have to part while the love is still there? why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye? why do beginnings have an end?
there are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed and promises left unfulfilled.
in a relationship one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. it is as hard as breaking a crystal rose, becuase you never know when you will be able to pick up the broken pieces again.
at the beginning and at the end of the relationship, we are embarassed to find ourselves alone. unfair as it may seem, but thats the way love goes. everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how and without us knowing why. we must forget, not becuase we want to but because we have to.
it seems that everywhere you go, everything that you do, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eyes and every breath you take always remind you of him. just imagine, there are four billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other. i dont know if its worth calling an art, but letting go entails a special skill with a considrable space and time. time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part.
not all love stories end with "and they lived happily ever after" sometimes we have to part becuase of circumstances beyond our control. we have to suffer, if it would mean happiness to others. we have to cry temporarily to let go of pains, every beginning has its end, like every dawn has its dusk, its over, he's gone. but life has to go one. goodbye doesnt mean forever. there will always be a place in time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.
somewhere,
somehow,
someday.

oOo
*sigh* im sorry for the repost, oh ye few, ye merry few that bother to read my blog.

everytime i read those passages, iam comforted. closure is part of our lives and since man is naturally an inquisitive being, closure is inevitable.

i have come to the conclusion that i have to accept that he will never be mine. as friends maybe, but as a significant other, it would be improbable. the more i fight and rage against this emotion that i have for him, the more it hurts. therefore, i must accept it as it is and like what they say.. take it a day at a time. because id rather stay and suffer rather than lose the friendship.

gaya ng ng sabi ng friend kong si Vera, "Bakla, pwede ka nang magpa-baril sa Luneta... O.A ka sa pagka-martyr eh..." hahahaha... imagine me standing in the middle of Luneta provoking the honor guards to shoot me where i stand.

if one could browse through my life, it can be said that it hasnt been smooth sailing all the way. life is indeed unfair, yet it is beautiful in its entirety.

the most vulnerable point of a person is at the point where one is in between sleep and waking up, whenever i have problems, they would rush in at that time and make me feel that i shouldnt get up from bed anymore and just stay there until Christ's second coming.

i have found the solution to fight this pain. just let it flow through you. like wet paint that washes out when it rains. they are like tears, they cleanse you of the anguish that you have inside. never fight it coz the more that you fight it the longer it stays in your system. the more painful and heavier it becomes to bear.

i am a samurai and God is my creator. every blow of the hammer makes me stronger, sharper, more beautful and lethal. He is a master craftsman and would never ever break a masterpiece. so i trust and Love Him... unconditionally.

i have more than my fair share of hitting rock bottom, yet God balances it out by blessing me with wonderful friends.

i have never regretted anything in my life... coz all the decisions that i have made, led me to the path wher i am now. it made me become the person that i am today. call me boastful or arrogant but i love myself. i love the person that iam right now, and i am excited to see who i will become as more and more trials come my way.

disjointed yung thoughts no? sorry... a lot of ideas are running through my mind and my fingers are barely keeping up. so i jsut type whatever comes to mind.

oh well...

today is a good day.

today i am happy.

so there...

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ps. sorry for the grammatical errors... antok na ako eh