Confusion

anger.

jealousy.

jealously.

very jealously.

closely guarded secrets,
like broken shells on the shore,
strewn everywhere.
broken.

jealousy.

am i not enough?
who do you think you are?
who do you FUCKING think you are?

i am nothing.
i am nobody.

you said that I was your towerblock.
it seems that I’m not.

jealousy.

jealously.

very jealously.

i am not special.
what do i want?
YOU?!

like some math equation.
it cannot be.

fatigued
breaking point.

who am i?
i cant take this anymore.

tired.

so tired.

you don’t deserve me.
maybe that’s the reason why she said goodbye…
its not me
its you

tired.

so tired.

of sharing
of caring
of LOVING…

FUCK YOU!

i will not be defeated by you.
i wont go under.

truth

lies

truth
only truth
so you say…

why not do anything about it?

too soft…
too kind…
too stubborn…

drowning.

i am drowning.

too heavy.
too tired.
too much.

this is too much.
you are too much.

too much ranting.

you’re taking too much of my time.
you don’t even have a clue…

this is stupid.
i AM stupid.

always.

but I love you.

I love you for the man that you are.
and those beautiful BROWN eyes.

you have such beautiful brown eyes.

so much like mine.
so much like me.

i’ve fallen all over again.

oOo

i think im losing whatever marbles i have left.
one moment im happy the next thing that you know.. am extremely morose.
Jeez...

i dont think i can take anymore of this drama.

i am NOT a teenage drama queen.

chalk it up to hormones? eeww..

i dont do PMS... i have too much testosterone for that... HAHAHAHAHA.

oh yeah... im like this when im in LOVE...

*insert gasp of realization here*

wahahahahaha... napaka pathetic ampucha. BOBO pa. inlove sa taong hindi naman sya mahal. tanga sobra men!!

pero ang problema jan... eh bakit ko ina-allow?

bakit kamo?

err...

ewan ko ren.. eng eng din kasi ako eh.. to the nth power.

eto na lang... sana mahalin ka nya the way you deserve to be loved. kasi ako mahal kita eh and i have an idea on how you WANT to be loved. pero... nauna sya sa puso mo eh...

HUWAHAHAHAHA ... am such a cheese ball... JOLOGS!!! *amf*

yoko na...

pero bakit nga ba gustong gusto kong mag wallow sa problemang dinudulot mo sa buhay ko?

kasi... am madly inlove with you.. TANGA.

basta.. swear to God...

im getting rid of you...

one day...

tomorrow...

soon...

i love this self pity/self blaming jag...

HAHAHAHAHA.. maiba naman.. lagi na akong masaya eh.

eto pa pala...

post ako ng post dito... hoping that one day mabasa mo to...

eto problema jan... unang una hindi mo nman alam ang blog ko...

pangalawa... tamad ka kasi mag basa...

HAHAHAHAHAHA...

cietz... tama lang to ng walang tulog.

Jologs ko talaga.

ps.
oipst bes, if you get to read this... talk to me... i need your advice... hwehwehwehwehwe!!!!