Monday, December 24, 2007

Masaya mag Pasko sa Pilipinas

Masarap talaga ang Pasko sa Pilipinas. Makukulay na ilaw. Masasayang tugtugin. Mga batang nanga-ngaroling. Mga pulubing nagkalat sa kalye. Di mahulugang karayom na dami ng tao sa Divisoria. Lahat ng tao nasa mall para mamili ng butingting na nais nilang ibigay sa mga minamahal at mga importantent tao sa kani kanilang mga buhay. So bakit ko pino-post itong blog na to? Wala lang. Kasi masaya ako. Kasi Pasko nanaman dito sa bansang pinaka mamahal ko. Kasi tambay ako sa Starbucks. Kasi maganda ang gising ko. Kasi magpapasko ako kasama ng aking bestfriend. Kasi masaya yung dinner namin nung isang gabi nila Andy, Eeyan, Ipper at Eden. Kasi ang hirap kumuha ng taxi ngayon sa Makati. Kasi sukang suka na ako sa Cubao. Kasi hindi ako kinikibo ni Karl. Kasi me bago ako trabaho pag pasok ng bagong taon. Kasi sweet yung mga barista sa Starbucks. Nagpicturan kami nung nalaman nila na matagal bago ako makakadalaw ulit sa kanila dahil nga may bago na akong trabaho at mga taga Starbucks Shangri-La na ang aabalahin ko para itimpla ang aking Double Shot grande iced Caffe Mocha. Kasi itong taon na ito ay hinding hindi ko makakalimutan. Kasi maswerte ako dahil ako ay napapaligiran ng kasiyahan mula sa aking mga kaibigan at pamilya. Kasi mabait sakin ang Diyos. Kasi 3 stick na lang ng yosi ang niyo-yosi ko sa isang araw. Kasi matagal na akong hindi umiinom ng beer. Kasi maliit ang kamay ko. Kasi maganda ang tugtog sa ipod ko. Kasi hindi ko alam kung kelan masosoli sakin ni Huck yung libro at dvd at pera ko. Kasi cute sobra yung bunso kong kapatid na lalaki at nag enjoy ako sa super bonding namin kahapon kahit ginawa nila akong driver ni mommy. Kasi sobrang blessed ako ngayong taon. Kasi nandito si John ngayon at sobrang saya ko dahil na meet ko na ang nanay nya at na meet na ya ang parents ko, kung yayayain lang nya ako ulit magpakasal papayag na ako. Kasi maswerte pa rin ako na kahit hindi ako magtrabaho sa ibang bansa ay nakakapag paaral ako ng kapatid, nakaka ipon ako ng pera at nakakapag luho ako. Kasi pwede ako pumunta sa ibang bansa kung gugustuhin ko para magbakasyon (wala nga lang akong kasama at wala rin lang akong oras masyado.. pero kayang gawan ng paraan yung oras. tamad lang ako) Kasi nakaka addik mag PEx. Kasi marami akong nakilalang kaibigan sa PEx. Kasi madaldal ako. Kasi mabilis ang aking mga daliri sa pag tipa ng mga salita para mabuo ang blog na ito.

basta marami pa. Pero ang gusto go rin ipa-alam sa inyo na ang saya saya ko at magpapasko ako dito sa Pilipinas kasama ng aking mga kaibigan at pamilya. Salamat sa inyong lahat. Salamat sa pagiging parte ng aking buhay ngayong taon. Salamat kasi kahit me lamat ng konti ang aking pag iisip a
y nandyan pa rin kayo at hindi nyo ako isinusugod sa mental hospital (balita ko nakaka flip daw ang hangin dun) Salamat kasi patuloy ang inyong pag supporta sa aking kalokohan, sa aking hindi pag review sa Bar, sa king di pag gamit ng aking MBA at sa hindi pagtanong, hindi pagtawa at hindi pag ipon ng galit sa tuwing ako ay madadapa. Salamat sa mga magulang ko at hinahayaan nyo lang akong matututo habang ako ay naglalakbay sa buhay na ito. Salamat at hindi nyo ako pinipigilan na gawin ang aking mga gusto. Salamat sa inyong pagtitiwala na alam nyong hindi ako gagawa ng bagay na makakasama para sa kin. hay... inaantok na ako ulit.

Mamaya na lang ulit... hahahaha!

Half Truths and Whole Lies

"Shoulda checked the fine print hon...That blowjob did not come with a lifetime warranty..."

"..." when she red that passage she really had to stop and laugh... and laugh out loud is what she did. While laughing a tear slid down her face. The book she is currently reading is a gift from a former colleague... Grace. She was touched by that gesture. There had only been 5 people who had given her books as gifts. Only three of them understood her enough to get her books that she was able to appreciate. as she picked up the book again, she saw that one of her friends from Canada just logged in. they talked about how to trust a person. at a certain point in the conversation, she asked him if how good is his "bullshit-o-meter" was. he said it was fairly good, however when it comes to significant other his "bullshit-o-meter" is as good as a pile of road apples. therefore he wasnt a good gauge if his "significant" or not so significant other was piling the dust on him or not. after they talked she went back to reading her book... where the main character Ellen Cherry goes.. "Neat, im delighted to learn that I've been compared to a heathen fornication instructor, a husband corrupter and a baboon's ass all in one lump" she went back to laughing once again...

Friday, December 21, 2007

is it just me??

in the search field here in multiply.. the option for music aint there no more...

is it just me??

oh woe is me...

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Passenger 11-F2

for thee heartbeats he looks at her face, then he rolls his head on his shoulders. "so you think that that was more stupid than the car chase thing on ECP?"

she was still laughing when she answered. "yes. i think that was more stupid than what we did on ECP."

"why is it more stupid?"

"because i say so..."

he had to laugh. everytime she would get cornered she would do her because-i-say-so song. he looked up and stared at the night sky. the sky seemed like royal velvet with diamonds flirtaciously winking at him. He often wondered why their relationship status never went past the best friend stage, they had a couple of those hawwire moments before but it never progressed to anything beyond that. he takes the bottle of vodka from her and drinks from it. "why didnt you take that job offer in Singapore? from what i heard Tita Chel said that they offered a $6000 sgd for your skill set"

she jerked at the question and looked at him hard. "i didnt know you still talked to Tita Chel"

"still talked is relative. i visited her when we went to Singapore because i thought you were there. i know that you were mad at me for dragging you there just so maia and i could talk. i mean when we landed at changi, you left me there. took a cab, left your bag at Chini's and *poofed*"

she took a drag from her cigarette before answering. "yeah i was pissed off. its a good thing Orion met up with me. in the cab from the airport, i called him up and told him i had to rant about you. hahahaha. 'twas a good thing that he had work that day. so we hung out at the starbucks near tower 5."

"i see. ever wondered how come we never got past the friend stage?" he asks while stretching his arms above his head.

"its because we both know what we looked like when we were kids. hahahaha. youre a snot nosed chinky bastard child who had bad hair and funny teeth. why would i want to end up with you?" she laughingly answered.

he tugs on her hair and pokes her sides. she whacks him with the potato chip bag. they continue on like that for a few minutes then she shouts at him. "hoy punyeta! we might fall oiff this wall. i just got my ribs healed and i dont want to have them broken again. EVER.what time is it anyway?"

he looks at his watch, "its 4:38am."

"almost sunrise. as soon as it does, can we get off this wall? i need to catch some zzz's."

"sure." he looks at her and asks the question that had been bugging him for quite awhile now. "do you think i was stupid for going to singapore and tried to patch things up with maia?"

she takes the last mouthful of vodka from the bottle and throws it with violent grace to the bushes below. "i didnt that was stupid. i thought that was kinda brave, but thats just me." she shrugs right after giving that answer.

he gives her his trademark smirk, then says "thank you. yours is one of the few that matters." he reaches out his right hand and puts it over her left hand then squeezes it. she twines her fingers with his. he notices that she was wearing something on her ring finger. "is this the ring that i gave you years back?" he asks while moving his thumb over the ring.

"yup. never took it off since you gave it to me."

"cool. hey... you didnt answer my question.."

she looks at him and asks "which one?"

"why didnt take any of the job offers there in Sg?"

she grins at him and says "if you know me well.. you'd know the answer to that..."


Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Jeanne Likes To...

sa weekend na ako mag po-post ng madrama kong mga blogs..

swiped this from Lang who swiped it from andrea (meow!)

1.
Jeanne likes to write more than anything, but always makes time to attend the ball games her sons ... In the spare time she has left, Jeanne likes to quilt. ... (i didnt know i had sons already.. hahahaha)

2.
Jeanne likes to look at life through 3X5's. She has amazing ability behind a camera and can make even a rock look beautiful. (weeeeeeeeeeeeeee... )

3.
Away from work, Jeanne likes to ride her Honda Aero scooter, metal detect, and spend time with her three nieces and three nephews. (wow...)

4.
Jeanne likes to say, "I have participated with some of the most successful companies of our times, seen great CEO's and teams in action and learned how to ... (wehehehe! Goddess talaga)

5.
Jeanne likes to bathe. Likes to shower. Because we’ve made it a pleasurable experience. Jeanne associates a shower with a full body massage. (huwat?! i dont like taking baths... :lol:)

6.
Jeanne likes to bring out LDS spiritual ideas and concepts through the characters she creates. (ehem...)

7.
Jeanne likes to stay in motion, so the upbeat tempo at Salmon Bay suits her perfectly. (cool...)

8.
In addition to singing with Corporate Radio and doing some part-time modeling with IMI Talent, Inc, in her spare time Jeanne likes to read (i didnt know i do modelling?)

9.
Jeanne likes to spend her spare time cooking (great desserts!), and doing things around the house. (yep.. thats me)

10.
He and Emma are both happy they were "raised in a dog kennel," as Jeanne likes to joke. (hmmm... di ko gets to)

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that was amazing and cute! kakatuwa... it fit me!

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Passenger 11 F

"...and yet what?..."

" and yet, i have never seen a person so dumb and smart at the same time.i really wish you could see yourself through my eyes. its tiring to have this conversation. the bottomline here is that you are worth it. you are worth being a friend or lover for. YOU just have to know it."

she laughs at him and tugs at his hair. "hoy youre too serious. lets change the topic na lang. Lets talk about YOUR booboos..."

he looks at her and laughs too. but in his mind he was thinking, she never understands my argument. if she wasnt a dear friend, he would have given up on her a long time ago.

"Never you mind my booboos! hahahaha... at least im not attracted to bald gay men..."

"which one?" she answers while guffawing. "the one abroad or the one at the office?"

"both"

they kept on laughing till tears started springing from the corners of their eyes. she then takes a long drage from her cigarette and then asks him "so you over that whole asian disaster?"

he looks away and stares at the setting sun. "not really. i guess i should, but i still love her."

"aww sweetie..." then she goes and gives him a one armed hug. "so we're all stupid in some ways... but you know, in our 15 year old friendship, the stupidest thing that we've done was that one night..."

"which one? the one at your place or the one in Singapore? so you think that it was stupid?"

"uh, yeah.. that was.. wait.. what happened in Singapore? was i there?"

chuckling, he answered "yeah, when she called me and i was rushing out of the house and we did the car chase thing on the ECP..."

"ooh.. that..."

"what night were YOU talking about anyway?"

she couldnt answer because she was laughing so hard. so he poked her on the sides until she gave him the answer.

"when you kissed me... hahahaha... it was a good thing that my friend called up.. who knows what might've happened if he didnt. but that rated pretty high in my stupid book. i mean.. i had to pat the top of my head to see if it wasnt blown off... mind you, that was one helluva good kiss though..."

Saturday, December 08, 2007

commercial muna...

FOR RENT:

Slightly used, perenially happy, occasionally eccentric 25-year-old female. Answers to the call "Jenn" or "eLDi" or "Tesa". Good listener --enjoys it in fact, as long as the unloading of psychic garbage is regulated. Perfectly willing to try to engage in conversation, or play billiards or hang out at starbucks --unit is part of the "quiet type" series. Open to all avenues of interest, but seems to be more receptive to writing and reading. The cost: free of charge, although time and effort is required for a friendship to blossom. for more details... send me a message...

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Vodka with MSG .. v.2

"so why quiet all of a sudden?"

she looks at him. the setting sun glinted off his glasses and then laughs.

"nothing really. its just that i know why people treat me this way, yet i dont know why i cant seem to change" she says then takes a swig from the half empty vodka bottle.

"coz youre a doofus. but youre my doofus. so its okay" he laughingly said while ruffling her hair. "what i cant figure out though is that why cant you seem to get over the fact that people WILL like you for you. not for what you can buy for them. take me for instance, when we first met... you had a booger hanging from the tip of your nose and you were short. well, youre still short now anyway, but i still like you."

she had to laugh at that.

he took a long drag from his cigarette and then blew it out. "Buying people things dont make them like a person - not for real most of the time mind you - remember the guy you were mooning over lately? you spent tons of money on him as if he were your boyfriend... or me... did that get you anywhere? nope. he just got used to the fact that you send him things every time he'd ask for it." he takes another long drag from his cigarette then continues on. "did he like you back? i dont think so...youre a smart lady, funny, charming, very gullible and intelligent at times. whats not to like? so please stop harping on the fact that society doesnt consider you beautiful. its all in your head. ive seen you act when you think no one is looking. you have this jene sais quoi that is really attractive."

she smiled at this point. he would always give that speech to her whenever they would have this conversation. the "jene sais quoi" speech.

she pokes him on the shoulder. "yeahyeahyeahyeah... so if i really AM as attractive as you say, how come im single?" then gives him her dimpled smile.

he sticks his tongue out at her and says "thats such a dumb question. i really cant answer for my specie, however if you would really want an answer here are some: because youre crazy. because youre a workaholic. because youre fat. because youre so self conscious that it annoys them. because you put up walls that they cant breach. because they think youre high maintenance. because they think youre too smart for them... take your pick."

she takes a cigarette from the pack and lights one. the flame flickers dangerously close to her hair as she lights her cigarette. this was a new one. she sniffs the vodka bottle and then checks the msg quotient of the chips that they were eating.he never said that before. she looks at him trying to gauge his temperament.

"you mad at me?" she quietly asks

"im not mad at you. im just annoyed. we've had this conversation over and over and over again. but you dont change. it annoys me to no end that you allow these people to abuse you and take advantage of your kindness. ive been your friend for years and yet..."

...to be continued...


Monday, December 03, 2007

Vodka with MSG

they were just continuing on an argument. one that they have talked about again and again. one that never gets resolved, only pended.

"the problem with you is that you are always waiting for people to disappoint you. its not wrong to let people in once in awhile" he says while opening the freezer to grab a bottle of icy cold vodka.

"fine. so what if i only let a few people in my life. is there something monumentally wrong with that? im nice to all people anyway! i make them feel nice... good about themselves." she says while opening cabinet doors looking for chips for them to munch on while they downed the bottle of vodka.

"yeah youre nice to them alright. giving them material things and spending money on them doesnt necessarily equate as being NICE."

she gasps at this outrageous statement.

"take that back! or else ill hit you so hard on the mouth, your dentist is going to wake up."

he laughs at her while she threatens him with a huge bag of salt and vinegar kettle chips.

"we have been friends ever since i can remember. we have gone through relationships, graduations, deaths in the family or friends, gone through the deepest of funks, did a lot of stupid things together and individually and yes, we even talk about your period and how erratic they are. but you cant tell me that i dont know you." he says while opening the door for her.

they were heading off to the vacant lot adjacent to his home. there was this wall there that they sit on. it had been on that lot ever since they moved to the village. he would often go up there to think and watch the sun rise or set. a lot of times it was with her.

"i dont understand people." she says in a small voice

he laughs at this statement.

"well i understand you. what i dont get is why you try to please people who treat you like dirt, while people who treat you well... you somewhat take for granted."

she looks at him incredously... but then shuts up for a moment...



Friday, November 30, 2007

Fifty Questions from Dale

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
** credit card... but i rarely use them and when i do... i zero them out as soon as i can

2. What do you think of Inland Empire?
** i found it weird when Nikki started to become Sue... creepy really.. are you supposed to understand the disjointed sequences? i got lost in that poland/cali thing too...

3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?
** not really..

4. If you could go back and change one thing, what would it be?
** i think it would be to not be his friend. i dont think i was treated like one...

5. Name of your first grade teacher?
** Miss Dy.. she always called me a little devil (hahaha and she was our religion teacher)

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
** lay on a hammock (on a beach.. or maybe sa pearl farm), grab a Chuck Palahniuk book and down a beautifully chilled pitcher of Absolut Mandarin... or be on that "firewall" with Japeth and watch the sun go down, talk all night and THEN watch the sun rise... or go to Vancouver...

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
** i wanted to be a teacher... (and i know am a teacher of sorts..)

8. How many colleges did you attend?
** three (for two degrees mind you)

9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
** its a shirt that i got from my friend... it says "Blame Canada" hahahaha...

10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?
** ugh! hate it so much.. i find it weird that the value of the Peso had gone up considerably in the world market, however we still have high gas prices... isnt it supposed to happen that there should be a rollback or something?

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you, who and where?
** rupert everett and me in Barcelona... romantic city with this utterly charming man with a delightful brit accent.

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
** i dont use an alarm... but when i woke up, i was thinking.. dagnammit.. i didnt want to go to work.. i just wanted to stay in bed and get some more sleep

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
** i miss him. i dont want to go to work. i want to go on vacation, probably Barcelona

14. Favorite style of underwear?
** *evil grin*

15. What are your thoughts on downloadable music?
** it goes both ways for me... its a boon because i DO support piracy.. *lol* however, it is also a bane since it makes going to a live concert a dying art (like reading)

16. What errand/ chore do you despise?
** cleaning the house. im O.C i want everything in a proper place and when i start organizing/fising the house... its so hard for me to stop

17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?
** to do what?

18. Get up early or sleep in?
** getting up.. lets me know that i have another day to live...

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
** Ginger from As Told By Ginger (Nickelodeon), Mandy from The Grimm Adventures of Bill and Mandy (Cartoon Network) and Buttercup from Powerpuff Girls (Cartoon Network)

20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/ guy?
** cop a squat and have coffee while talking...

21. What was the last lie you told?
** that i was over something...

22. When did you first start feeling old?
** havent felt that yet

23. Favorite '80's movie?
** The Breakfast Club.. love that movie.. even it is cheesy

24. Your favorite lunch meat?
** chicken.. or shrimp

25. What do you get every time you go into an Apple store?
** salivate over a mac book.. even if i already have my baby ASUS (sorry sweetie..)

26. Beach or lake?
** Beach.. i love the sound that waves make when they reach the shore...

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
** no... but most people do, which sucks really

28. Do you own property?
** yes.. its in Makati.. i'll use it once i finish paying it off.

29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
** wrapping my books in plastic covers. (oh my god.. that is so nerdy)

30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
** If Only by Jennifer Love Hewitt... my golly, i think thats the only movie that she starred in that i absatively loved...

31. What's your drink?
** Absolut

32. Cowboys or Indians?
** can i say chinese? :lol:

33. Cops or Robbers?
** neither

34. Who from high school would you like to run into?
** probably Dennis... he's this really smart guy who i got to know for awhile but lost contact with when we went to college

35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
** i rarely listen to the radio now...

36. Long and fast or short and slow?
** what are we talking about here? if its about sex.. can i have both? like long and slow or short and fast?

37. What adult-oriented website would you recommend?
** i dont know

38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
** caring too much...

39. Do you like the person who sits directly next to you at work?
** right now its Cristina... yeah..she's this pretty nice lady. quiet really.

40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
** JK Rowling, Neil Gaiman, Pablo Neruda, Robert Frost, Maria Rainer Rilke, and Gabriel Garcia Marquez... i'd pick their brains

41. Indoors or Outdoors?
** im a cave creature.. but i love the outdoors too

42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
** nope.. but ive been crashed into a couple of times already

43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
** no.. but i think it would be monumentally cool if i did..

44. Last book you read for real?
** Diary by Chuck Palahniuk... i loved this part where it says: "Leonardo's Mona Lisa is just a thousand smears of paint. Michelangelo's David is just a million hits with a hammer. We're all of us a million bits put together the right way."

45. Do you have a teddy bear?
** yes.. his name is Buddy... he's been with me since i was a kid..

46. Have you ever peed in public?
** not that i can remember...

47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
** Hermosa Beach... my cuzzie said 'twas pretty there

48. Do you go to church?
** yes every sunday

49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
** a new relationship... it does get lonely at times...

50. Open or closed marriage?
** CLOSED...

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swiped this from Dale.. :*) thanks!

Monday, November 26, 2007

For the Love of George

3am Manila. Bored. Aimlessly meandering through pinoyexchange.com.

i stumble upon the call center thread where one PExer posts this link: http://chroniclesofgeorge.nanc.com/tickets1.htm

since i had nothing better to do, i clicked on the link. i wasnt expecting anything in particular. i thought that this link was for the usual call center boo-boos... but no. this link is different. MUCH different.

please, if you have the time (well if you have too much time on your hands and want to be entertained...) kindly visit the site (or just click on the link posted above) and share my happiness. bear in mind that George is 100% american. Born and bred in Texas.

i dont know if there is something wrong with my sense of humor... or if my sense of the absurd had become so shallow that i get tickled by the fact that this person can make me laugh... just by... hahahaha... just read it to find out...

enjoy. HAVENING a nice day to y'all!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Live. Love. Life In Divisoria

most of my friends say that i am lucky to live in the Divisoria area. there are days that i do and there are days that i dont.

i hate it when BER season comes because it makes it very difficult for me to bring a car to work. the thousands of people that troop to Divi and bargain their hearts out doesnt help my case either. noise pollution ups by 1000% making it hard for me to get some sleep.

the pictures here are some of the reasons why i love living in Divi. (well aside from the fact that if and when i run out of clothes, i can just go down the stairs and cross the street and i can buy a whole new wardrobe)

syempre on the first pic.. napaisip ako.. sino si Stepen? (hahahaha step in pala!!!)

next picture... :lol: BREVEHEART. pirated na pirated sya!! hahahaha... i know it was very risky to show the world that you have a high end mobile phone while in divi, but i couldnt help myself. i HAD to take a picture..

so there.. share ko lang!

Friday, November 23, 2007

Thank God for Thanksgiving Day ^_^

i love not having to go to work in the middle of the work week. today North Americans are celebrating Thanksgiving Day, so i will be posting some thanksgiving shoutouts of my own.

  • PExers: i am happy that we have taken our online relationships to the next step. I love sharing my life with you... hope we stay friends till we're all old and decrepit.
  • Mappet, Harvey, Japeth, Pot-Pot and Jerky: you guys picked me up when i was in the doldrums. Everytime i think about the first time we climbed that damned "firewall" and the booboo last saturday when Mappet kicked the ladder so we couldnt get down from that damned wall.. i wouldnt have minded staying on top of that wall forever and get UTI, as long as i could watch the sun rise with you guys...
  • Mayo: dude, pare, chong... thank you for being the crazy fool that you are. for tolerating a loopy lady like me. i love our morning coffee bonding moments. sawa na satin ang Starbucks... hahaha..
  • You: for inspiring me. Seeing you makes everything feel better. I thought I lost you there awhile back, but im happy that you're back... seriously... i am happy. just the thought of you being around comforts me.
o sya tama na yang drama ko.. inaantok na ako.

Monday, November 19, 2007

me and my silly grin

i havent felt this happy in quite awhile. giddy happy. wired happy. manic happy. its not that i havent had my happy moments... i have had my i-am-content-happy moments, those serene-smile-oh-nirvana-happiness, et al but this weekend was different. i cant discuss the full details while i am hazed in this happy fog... however, i feel very happy that somewhere on the other side of the world, someone is wearing the other half of my big silly grin.

I. AM. HAPPY!


Thursday, November 08, 2007

These are a few of my favorite things

these are a few of my favorite things: my charm bracelet (a gift from my boss Kristen. its so cute because the charms that are on it are related to travel. like an airplane and luggage set and a camera) my red Benetton knapsack, my lunch bag and of course my Starbucks commuter mug (one that i bought in Singapore) wala lang!

Monday, November 05, 2007

Bessy Day

i had the loveliest day yesterday.

spent it with one of the few people that i love on this planet, my bessy.

funny thing is, sabi nila hawig daw kaming dalawa. hahahahahah!

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was able to talk to a lost friend last night as well. i am happy to say that he is doing well and good,. i never liked the thought of losing contact with friends. so last night when we were talking i was happy,. it was a nice way to end a perfect day.



Friday, November 02, 2007

Breakfast at Starbucks...


i love spending my mornings alone. so every after shift i'd park myself at Starbucks, catch up on my reading for a few hours before heading home.

i lead a wonderful life.

i am blessed.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

F*cking Frustrating...

maybe there is something really wrong with me...

i enjoy going to the office because i love my new job and everytime that i go to the office i have something to look fo
rward to... my new object of my lustful affectations. Oscar. He's this Quality Coach from Publishing. I met him during one of the orientations that the office had hosted.

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Since it was Halloween last night, there were some people that wore costumes. one of them was my office inspiration... Oscar.

btw... Oscar is a little gay. i havent confirmed it yet, but he is...

kakainis dba.. crush ko bakla.


ay ambot.

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this is my messy desk. note the Lilo and Stitch Coloring book. that is my stress reliever.

such a messy desk...

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

tired...

i haven't had sleep worth mentioning for the past nights. i am crankiness personified. so looking forward to the uber long weekend ahead. i need me to get some sleep.

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I find it so cute that my babe and me wore the same shirt on the same day. hahahaha... we look like walking ads for adidas.

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i love the new look that Starbucks Araneta has. (i mean they just changed the chairs and stuff, but i love it nonetheless) i feel more comfortable chillaxing there now. going there tonight for my caffeine fix.


Sunday, October 21, 2007

Locked Up in my Tower

The point self reflection is, foremost, to clarify and to find honesty. Self-reflection is the way to throw self lies out and face the truth- however painful it might be to admit that you were wrong. We seek consistency in ourselves, and so when we are faced with inconsistency, we struggle to deny.

Denial has no place in self-reflection, and so it is incumbent upon a person to admit his errors, to embrace them and to move along in a more positive direction.

For sometimes we are afraid to hope, because hope breeds expectation and expectation can lead to disappointment.

And so i ask myself again, without the protective wall - or at least, conscious of it and determined to climb over it - why do i feel kinship to some people who has betrayed almost everything that i came to hold dear? why do i think about them ever?

I have often wondered, even recently and even as i ponder this new direction, if they are the one who i might have been had i not chosen the paths that i have chosen.

Reality is a curious thing. Truth is not as solid and as universal as any of us would like it to be; selfishness guides perception and perception invites justification. They physical image in the mirror, if not pleasing, can be altered by the mere brush of fingers through hair.

And so it is true that we can manipulate our own reality. we can persuade, even deceive. we can make others view us in dishonest ways. we can hide selfishness with charity, make a craving for acceptance into magnanimity, and amplify our smile to coerce a hesitant lover. the world is illusion, and often delusion, as victors write the histories and the children who die quietly under the stamp of a triumphant army never really existed. The robber baron becomes philanthropist in the final analysis, bequeathing only that for which he had no more use. the king who sends young men and women to die becomes beneficent with the kiss of a baby. every problem becomes a problem of perception to those who understand that reality, in reality, is what you make reality to be.

For a more difficult alteration than the physical image is the image that appears in the glass of introspection, the pureness or rot of the heart and soul.

For many, sadly, this is not an issue, for the illusion of their lives becomes self delusion, a masquerade that revels in the applause and sees in a pittance to charity a stain remover for the soul. How many conquerors, i wonder, who crushed out the lives of tens of thousands, could not hear those cries of inflicted despair beyond the applause of those who believed the wars would make the world a better place? How many thieves, i wonder, hear not the laments of victims and willingly blind themselves to the misery wrought of their violation under a blanket of their own suffered injustices?

when does theft becomes entitlement?

There are those who cannot see the stains on their souls. some lack the capacity to look in the glass of introspection, perhaps, and other alter reality without and within.

Only there, in that place, is the road of redemption, for any of us. only in facing honesty that image in the glass can we change the reality of who we are. Only in seeing the scars and the stains and the rot can we begin to heal.

I am not a king. not in temperament, nor by desire, nor heritage, nor popular demand. i am a small player in the events of a small region in a large world. when my day is past, i will be remembered, i hope, by those whose lives ive touched. when my day is past, i will be remembered...

I hope, fondly.



Monday, October 15, 2007

just to keep you informed

  • im locking myself up in my tower for the meantime... my faith in my fellowmen has waned once more
  • sold my vaio today.
  • having my internet connection cut off.. i want to disassociate from the world for the meantime. same goes with my mobile phone.
  • i have 2 cracked ribs... car accident. long story.
  • i know understand why Gregory House loves Vicodin.
  • i wish i was dead... really... heart smashed into smithereens...
  • getting a little annoyed... when will you pay me back?

Thursday, October 04, 2007

to touch and be touched...

early this morning, i felt that i had a stiff neck. i rotated my head clockwise and counterclockwise a couple of times. Lorrens was seated beside me, he goes "Babe, ano ginagawa mo?" so i told him that i think i have a stiff neck.

i was surprised when he offered to give my neck a massage. my hair is kind of longish already. i think he was having a minor problem with my hair in the way. he asked if i had a brush and a scrunchie. i wasnt really paying attention to what he was doing since i was reading something from the WBT.then i was surprised when he brushed my hair and put it up in a ponytail. then resumes the massage.

the last time someone brushed my hair was when i was a child. i was just pleasantly surprised that someone did it to me now that im a grown up adult. my lips kept turning up at the corners. i was touched by the gesture. i know its no big deal, but it was heartwarming.

i am pleased.

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I just finished screaming my lungs out. The Green Archers have take game 1 of the best of three championship against the UE Red Warriors. It was a hell of a game! There were so many lead changes and turnovers and deadlocks that even Nostradamus couldn't have predicted who would win the first game. The last 14 seconds of the game was a breathtaking...

I guess it all came down to championship experience and who wanted it more. Both teams had excellent coaches... the Pumarens are two of the best coaches in the league, but coaching can only do so much... its the players that are the ones that make it happen.

and they DID.

mad props to #11 Tyrone Tang for being an excellent point guard and leading the team to an important victory (heehee.. syempre biased ako coz he's my pamangkin). Cholo Villanueva, JV Casio and Rico Maierhoffer for being the pillars of strength that the team rests upon and of course Coach Franz Pumaren... steer the course to Victory!!

Animo LaSalle!!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

They WON the war...







this made my day. Garret thanks super much for recording the game and sending me a copy!

I am not joining the countless people that do the bashing thing when game time comes around.. but all i can say is: the game was SWEET. it was a
nail-biting-teeth-gnashing-hair-pulling-cloth-rending show of superb athletecism.

Both teams did there best, but sadly, there can only be one winner.

Ateneo may have won battles but LaSalle won THE war.

to Tyrone... stand proud baby! GO #11!!!

Animo LaSalle...

alis muna kami...

just killing time before the 2pm flight.

really really pissed off at this point.

pero friend ko sya eh... wala ako magawa.

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office cam whoring once more...








Saturday, September 29, 2007

the weekender

had a humongous fight with Jap last night. i told him that i really didnt want to go to Singapore. he said that he really wants me to accompany him.

putangina men... asar to the most fatal level.

so.. ill be in Sg this sunday/monday.

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latest office cam-whoring... *lol*


Friday, September 28, 2007

off to Sg this weekend

around 3am today, Japeth calls me up. he blabbers on something about Maia and Singapore and having booked a flight. i was having a bad day at work so what i did was i dropped the line. after five minutes he calls back. he was still talking in this fast, psychotic manner so i dropped the line again. he calls back immediately and asks what the hell my problem was. i told him that if he didnt slow down and breath THEN explain to me what was he talking about, id keep on dropping the line.

so the line was silent.

then he goes and says that Maia calls him up like 2 hours ago and according to him, he felt that she was giving a sign that she wanted to reconcile with Japeth. so he wanted to go there and confirm since according to him she was a little vague over the phone.

i told him that he doesnt need to go there. for one thing, she and Berks are the ones in a relationship now. and good God, have some dignity. she already dumped him. dont take her back.

he goes rambling on like an addict on a high... so i dropped the line again. i waited for him to call back. but after an hour or so... there still was no call. so i went back and focused on the training.

after shift, i saw that i had 3 messages. and these were all from Jap:

1st message:
SQ917 leaving MNL 14:20 (sunday)
SQ912 leaving SIN 13:25 (monday)

2nd message:
i booked for us both. were staying overnight at Chini's place. (Chini is his sister-in-law)

3rd message:
you cant say no. you OWE ME big time.

so i called him up and started to harangue him...

the conversation went nowhere... still trying to get myself out of the trip.

Fcuker.


 
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