Anesthesia

i have always appreciated when my friends would listen to my incessant chatter and innumerable questions... well I'm taking the time to thank all those people (specially those out of the country)

chuck: dude you rock. ever since we met last year (Gerry's) ive always envied you for taking hold of your dream and taking that leap off the cliff. one of the reasons why i didn't take that scholarship was because I'm a big coward.. i just tell people that I'm burnt out from college/law school to take that scholarship.. truth is.. I'm just scared to leave my comfort zone. call me crazy but i just keep on finding reasons not to go (New Castle scholarship... Lee Kwan Yew Scholarship). you're my vicarious thrill ^_^ hearing you talk about school there... damn.. makes me feel good (hahah pathetic i know) one of these days (but hopefully not too late...) ill take the plunge. thanks for being a constant inspiration.. (oh yeah.. syensya if I'm makulit sa YM)


gerard: my one true love... too bad we're both gay... :lol: tama na ang pag exile sa sarili mo... hindi masaya ang mag pastol ng kambing.. come back to civilization sweetie.. we miss you here.. i miss you!!! i miss our stupid shenanigans. i miss being drunk with you. i miss us. i miss having you around. basta pag nag offer na ang summit... come back ha?



Cerise: yeah, yeah, yeah.. i know its sad there in Bangkuber.. but don't worry,,, matapos lang yang tour of duty mo with Nana Maggie, you'll be back here in no time. Sascha, Dean, Panlilio and i are planning to go to Singapore on my birthday... if you're back here by that time... join us.. we miss having you around. i miss having you here. wala na akong kasamang inggitera/laitera/damsel in distress. hahaha thanks for reading (and answering) my super long novella emails. and as promised I'm out there trying to catch a man... sadly all i get are those siokoys that we talk about... pero guess what? I'm inspired.. :lol: too happy actually.. i'll post that on my next novella... hahaha i just wanted the world to know how much i appreciate you.

maxie: thanks for making me laugh (a lot) you're one cool dude. i really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me even when you're doing housechores. im also thankful that you dont get mad when i tease you.. ^_^

and to you: you are my anesthesia. you dull the pain that is my life. i know that we're just meant to be friends...but you make going through each day bearable. one day at a time dba? thank you so much.

oOo

just want to bi*tch about this... bakit walang pinto ang banyo ng women's washroom?! i mean ok may doors ang cubicles.. pero entering a washroom without a door is like entering a cubicle without a door either!!! ang haggard ha!

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a major shout out to my SB groupies... Sherwyn, Lois and Jino!! i miss you guys. soooo looking forward to see you on saturday! Movie at Glorietta... Celebrate natin yung tapos ng exams ni Baby Jino. Tapos meet natin si Stef.

The Buzz

Yesterday, after shift Mickey and I went to Gerardo's to grab a few drinks before we went home. (also we wanted to unwind)

sitting at Gerardo's we ordered two bottle of Red Horse (500ml)... talked our brains and smoked our lungs out.

Im not an alcoholic but I love the feeling that you get after two bottles of beer...

a lovely feeling of lassitude permeates your body... everything seems to be fuzzy around the edges... and you become happy.

ay hindot...

more beer... hahahah

Ab-so-fuc-kin-tas-tic!!!!

All he asked was for them to be remembered.

A story of Honor. Fearlessness. Passion. Blood and Faith... This is what The 300 is about.

The movie is perfect.

300 is a fantasy tale based on the Battle of Thermophylae in which 300 Spartans led by the fierce King Leonidas (uber sexy Gerard Butler) made a heroic stand against the overwhelming Persian army commanded by Xerxes (Rodrigo Santoro.. who uncannily looked like a bald Ru Paul *snigger*). Leonidas’ refusal to bow down to Xerxes sets the events in motion, with the Spartan 300 ready to willingly giving up their lives in order to keep Sparta free from the clutches of Xerxes and his invading horde.

The film's cinematography made the whole film look like one long dream sequence. The texture in the movie was so rich... so lush. I loved the way Leonidas' cloak flapped in the wind when he was climbing the mountain to visit the Council. I loved the contrast of color of the red Spartan cape on the golden wheatfield. The Oracle's dance. One word.. LUSH.

Another aspect that I absolutely loved about the movie were the lines that the characters delivered. They were witty, the comic timing was just right and inspiring. I really had to laugh at the thought that they were the ones where trash talking started from take for instance:

"Lay down your arms!"
"Come and get them..."

"Our arrows will blot out the sun..."
"Then we will fight in the shade"

oOo

"Spartan women give birth to real men..." (this line just killed me... it just killed me)

" Go and die. I’ll never see you again, but you’ll do this as a free man. Don’t answer this
question as a king or as a Spartan citizen but as a free man."

"This is where we fight... This is where they die..."

This is a film that never, not for one second, considers taking its foot off the accelerator. Once the battle is joined, it pretty much keeps going until the final frame, with only a few dialogue-driven scenes placed here and there to allow you to catch your breath, turn to your buddy and say, "Are you #%!#$!* kidding me!"

(i loved the scene where Leonidas and the Queen were doing it... wow... it was so hot, it almost burnt off my eyebrows...)

But 300's expository scenes are only a small part of the action anyway, a meager price you pay for beautifully choreographed battle scenes. Snyder's fancy camerawork translates 300 from the page so well that it looks more like a comic book than even Sin City. Scenes ebb, flow and freeze in time with the perfectly matched score, and images last just long enough for you to savor them, before being replaced by something equally startling... Seriously... Poetry in motion.

im seriously endorsing this movie because i loved everything about it (even the homosexual undertones... hahaha all that testosterone has to go somewhere...)

The phalanx as it moved as one at The Hot Gate.

Simply put, the movie is like the perfect woman...
Sexy. Gorgeous. Funny. Stunning. Intelligent.

** p.s**
Also, it didnt hurt that there were 300 Gorgeous men in leather (?) underwear, with washboard abs and ripped muscles. hahahaha... Gotta lurve all those lovely golden skin exposed... God love the Spartans.

Symbianize - Exclusive PINOY Community

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i just joined this group last January 1 and they rock! (what a fabulous way to start the year!)

i found them when i googled e-books.. and then they provided me with all my e-book requests from all my fave authors. the people there are Filipino so its so easy to talk to them. they are all pretty accomodating too..

they also cater to computer applications, mp3 & ebook requests and answer any question that you may have on your mind... so please.. if you want to make new friends and satisfy your craving for information.. please visit us at WWW.SYMBIANIZE.COM

look for margaux_sofya, Global360, kerstinne25, ShaneIsha, its4fun, Battosai and Lance... theyre one of the most helpful people there...

peaceout~

love is too convenient

I was watching "The Notebook", when it suddenly hit me, why do these cheesy love stories make me somehow wish that someone will love me that way. But then i thought, am i not being loved with the same amount, yet the only thing that makes it different is the era?

We live in a fast-paced life, wherein a single click, a single second can change our lives drastically. Isn't it amazing how "i love you" became so easy to say, or even express? The phrase is even a cliche! Sometimes we feel that the other person doesn't mean it anymore, but in reality, we're just hoping for magnified expressions. Big enoough for us to notice. The ones that really require so much effort. But is it just that, love is still the same, yet its expression has evolved, or it is the fact that the meaning of love just evolved through time?

Love conquers all.

History dictates what love can do. Its either its something great, or something so terrible enough to lose our sanity. After watching the paperback that turned into film, the feeling of envy is still right beneath my head. But right now im realizing, is it really something to envy about? Is it our faults that technology has evolved, and has tremendously made expression so much easier?

Sometimes its so nice to live a simple life. A life wherein not all things evolve and exist for our convenience... The simple acts are the ones that mean so much. A cheesy card, your guy going to your house just to ask you if he could take you to dinner tomorrow, a bunch of flowers that's hand-picked. Expressions of love arent supposed to be disposable, just like a text msg in your fone that you can delete. Its something that should stick to our memories. Something done out of convenience. and i go back to what i said. Love conquers all.... it conquers the comforts of the world we live in right now. It doesnt have to be hard, but it has to be done with meaning.

fallen

*sigh*

im missing him so bad.

you just... Fall.

lifted from the MSN archive...

01.04.06 / j_quantum & Kickass Goddess

oOo

j_quantum says:
hahahha HUGSS baby tight pressing my chest against her breast and whispering to her "Can you feel that heart beating for you?"

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
awwww....

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
*blushing in a very pleased way*

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
*looks up to my baby and whispers... wish you can hear my heart too...*

j_quantum says:
hahhahaha KISSESS & HUGGSS baby and whispers I love you baby

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
*kisses baby back and whispers back i love you too so much*

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
i cant actually believe this...

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
im inlove with a guy who is half a world away

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
*sigh*

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
i sure do hope im not entering into something thats gonna end up in a load of hurt...

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
*hugs baby tight*

j_quantum says:
hahahha well why would I wanna hurt you baby? hahha

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
not physically...

Kickass Goddess pretty sad says:
more on breaking my heart.

j_quantum says:
hahahahha well that's what I meant too. why would I try to break your heart baby? hahaha

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im scared shitless... im falling inlove with him. he's half a world away and he's coming back next March... im taking a gamble. this is why they call it falling in love... because you just choose

to...

FALL...

waxing poetics

I love you.

And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you’re unattainable.

I love you.

Very simple, very truly. You’re the epitome of every attribute and quality I’ve ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I can’t do this any longer. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended – but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it.

And if bringing it to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn’t allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I’ll accept that but I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not suppress that - at least for ten minutes - and try to dwell in it before you dismiss it. There isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who’s ever made me the person I am when I’m with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it’s there between you and me.

You can’t deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I’m forever changed because of you and what you’ve meant to me...

oOo

Christmas really sucks. Call me Ebeneezer Scrooge.. Bah Humbug

butterfly

this is John... my sweetie, he's so cute... aint he?

oOo

Have you ever tried chasing after butterflies? It's tough...if not virtually impossible.

Won't do anyone good to chase after something so elusive much less have a relationship with one. That reality has been constantly being rammed into my thick skull for the longest time. But alas there is something so very mesmerizing about butterflies so very intriguing yet so deadly.

It may be a magical experience but only for a limited time because butterflies tend to fly away without hesitation to their next destination. Hanging on to them is futile because you are just a stop over after all. The hurtful part of the experience is that you get left behind without a warning. One day you're up in the clouds the next day you're down on the ground and you never knew it coming.

I heard someone say that when you're heart takes a big blow and it gets torn into a million pieces, your heart grows back bigger than it was the first time. Maybe that's why I could feel no anger just a quiet acceptance and deeper understanding. Sure the tears are there but my feet is still firmly on the ground this time and i have a stronger resolve not to chase after butterflies...i keep my palm open this time. So go on and fly...you're free to fly...my butterfly.

I firmly believe that I am worth coming home to and build a home with...since you choose to fly away...then i guess you're not the one for me. Somewhere, someone, sometime i'll be found and i'll find the one for me. And that would be the happiest day of my life...no more chasing after butterflies.

oOo

i'm missing you already. even if youre still here. it really isnt meant to be. fly and be free butterfly...

schnu schnu

isnt she pretty? thats Share Bear from Care Bears. this pretty little thing is a gift from my wonderful wonderful bessy. She lifts my spirit up when im feeling down or feeling irate. She also smells like my Bessy so its kinda funny that i dont miss him even if i dont see him, coz its like he's with me anyway. I love her so much... she's purple! my fave color...

oOo

im kinda been in a mild state of bliss lately (even when im stressed) my friend john and i have been playing a little nookie. hahaha... i look forward to the end of each day coz he just drops by the apartment. haha. last night he was there, i had to cook dinner. made pasta for him. ^_^

he's dropping by later... wonder what we'll be doing *snicker*

gotta go.. more updates soon

you suck

click on the pic to see it better. `nuff said

A Loser: Major in D

"We have to meet other people to see what it's like to be with someone else. I'm giving you that choice. if you come back to me, we'll both be better from having chosen freely"

- SMS from ... Bie 11/07/06

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you're thinking too damn much again.

don't think too much.

this is a process you have to go through. unfortunately, alone.

a song is playing, pero labas lang agad sa kabilang tenga. diyan ka naman magaling di ba? ang palampasin ang mga pagkakataon na sana'y magiging masaya ka.

that's okay.

move on.

need to keep going.

get busy.

nalalapit na ang araw na iyon, don't do anything stupid. anything na alam mo namang pagsisisihan mo from then on.

just to be on the safer side of things, do nothing at all. that is a big part of the moving on process.

just like this letter slash reminder slash whatever you call it. it's hard to move on i know pero kelangan. para na rin sa iyo. wag ka iiyak. you're strong di ba? thus, deep inside, you've got to be tough too.

don't feel bad for being the way you are. no more contradictions. masyado nang komplikado ang mga bagay-bagay na nangyayari sa utak mo. masisiraan ka lang ng ulo.

no more.

no more.

ayoko na... :'(

oOo

I

am

a

LOSER.

big time...

to my best

bessie ko,

salamat sa usap natin last saturday... grabe! pang MMK na naman ang mga eksena

i'm happy ayos na ang lahat sa atin dalawa.

eto na nga siguro yung closure na hinihintay natin pareho.

thank you kase naintindihan mo ko...thank you kase i know you'll be happy if i'm happy. thank you kase friends pa rin tayo after everything that has happened. dito lang ako...friends pa rin tayo. magkaiba man tayo ng mga pananaw sa buhay...dito pa rin ako para intindihin ka. charge to experience na lang lahat ng nangyare sa aten...lahat naman ng tao nagkakamali...ang importante, matuto sa pagkakamali at wag na ulitin pa.

kaya ikaw, sana natuto ka na. wag na magpaiyak pa ng iba ha...kung hinde... hehehe alam ko di madaling magbago, alam ko mahirap din i-convince ang mga tao na gusto mo na magbago...pero ganyan talaga...you have to suffer the consequences. kaya ang pinakamabuti sa lahat...wag ka na lang magsalita. ipakita mo na lang ang bagong ikaw. ok? basta dito lang ako...kalimutan na natin lahat ng nangyare...wala naman mabuti maidudulot kung magkikimkim tayo ng galet. magmove on na lang tayo at magstart ng bagong buhay. ingat ka lage...dito lang ako.

love,
bessy

hay naku

itinapon mo lahat para lang maisalba ang sarili mo. yan ba ang pagkakaibigan?

sana inisip mo ng maigi yung dahilan bat naging mas malapit siya sa amin kesa sa iyo. sana tiningnan mo ang sarili mo, mga pananaw mo sa buhay, mga ikinilos mo. alam mo yun, sana sinuri mo yung sitwasyon. di ka lang sana tumingin sa kung ano lang ang nasa harap mo.

at wag mong sabihin na hindi ka namin inintindi. ikaw mismo ang witness sa todo-todong tiwala't suporta na ibinigay namin sa iyo mula pa nung simula. kung nasasaktan, mas masakit sa amin. bakit? kasi ilang beses ka na naming binigyan ng chance para maayos ang lahat. hindi naman kami ang gumawa ng mga bagay-bagay na "ikinasira" mo.

IKAW mismo.

at wag mong idahilan na hindi mo alam kung ano ang nagawa mo. na hindi mo alam na nakakasakit ka na pala. na hindi mo alam kung anong posibleng maging epekto ng mga actions mo sa mga taong nakapaligid sa iyo. bakit? possessed ka ba nung mga panahong ginagawa mo yung mga bagay na yun? na after mong magawa't lahat sasabihin mo "hindi ko alam na ganun yung nagawa ko".

sa lahat ng bagay ba ang iniisip mo hanggat malulusutan ko eh gagawa't gagawa ako ng mga dahilan para pagkatakpan ang sarili at madiin ang ibang tao? nagkataon pa nung yung mga taong yun eh yung nag-cacare sa iyo, na kung ituring ka na eh parang tunay na kapatid. sana nga natuto ka na. sana nga alam mo ng pahalagahan kugn anong meron ka. sana nga makapagsimula ka na ulit at tuluyan mo ng maayos ang lahat.

dahil yung mga itinapon mo na, di na yun babalik pa sa iyo.

kahit gaano pa kasakit ang ginawa mo, hangad ko pa din na maging masaya ka.

pero hanggang dun na lang yun. wala ka ng aasahan pa mula sa akin. tapos na.

matututo din akong maging manhid...

Let Me

Let me cry,

allow the tears to cascade slowly down my cheeks,
as i shout my rage and pound my fists,
and grant me empty whispers and quiet tirade.
but please dont watch me, i am so ashamed...

Let my weep,

allow my sobs to echo noisily within this barren room,
grant me to seek refuge in my own sorrow.
sanctuary which i could never find in you.
give me the chance to savor each tear like vintage wine.

now Let me rest,

let me dry these tears with the cold night air,
allow me to lay my head upon the earthen floor,
to let me rest
a minute more
never to wake...

let me go,
in peace...

oOo

*sigh*

i just had a dream... one that felt so real... but when i woke up and realized that it was just a dream, i felt such a deep loss.

when i woke up i wanted that dream to be so real. i felt this ache in me that desperately wanted it to be true.

i cried after that dream... coz i know, it is one of the deepest most desperate desire of my heart... my life... one that i know will never come true.

dreams really are the manifestation of one's suppressed thoughts and feelings...

oOo

onto happier thoughts, i had nothing better to do in the office the past few days so i took some pictures of my new cutie. he remains unnamed... so temporarily he is known as Cutie. ^_^

Cutie is the new mascot for XBOX. *snicker* thats him taking in calls... isnt he just adorable?

this is the funny part, Cutie was caught surfing sites unrelated to XBOX so he was given a C.A. by our TM Walter... *snicke* (see picture below)

in the same day, Cutie was also given a commendation by one of the clients because of his great customer service and adorable voice. thats the reason why he has that XBOX 360 football stress reliever... awwww... ^_^ isnt he Cute?

till next time... watch out for Cutie's misadventures at NCO-RMH...

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let me disappear into oblivion,
wher i can be at rest.

let me escape this world,
where i have never been a part.

i ahve never belonged anywhere,
though i have pretended to be for awhile.

but my mark is soon fading fast,
and i cannot anymore stand my ground.

nothing makes sense anymore
and nothing seems worthwhile.

so please let me close my eyes,
let me embrace this fading light.

soon things will be alright,
and at last, peace will be mine.

Search for my Happy Place (Day 3)

Funny how most people keep on saying that when theyre looking to something they always find it at the last place they look in.

well duh!

basically if you are looking for something and then you find it, do you still go look for it somewhere else?

i dont think so.

so whats my point here?

all im trying to sy is that i found my happy place and that happy place is me being with my friends.

while taking a bath earlier i had an epiphany... i am a happy person because i love interacting with people. specifically friends. im sad because i love my friends. but the bottomline here is that i cannot live without my friends because they make my life miserable yet happy at the same time.

i finally found my happy place.

my friends are MY happy place.

i realized that i was not happy because i worry about their problems and i really shouldnt.

i also realized that i am the one causing my misery. not them.

duh!

*snicker* im stupid that way...

anyway... yesterday i just won 2 tickets to the premiere of the movie "The Prestige." i sure hope that this movie is good.

i wonder who am going to take along to watch that movie...

Looking for my Happy Place (Day 1)

"Realize that true happiness lies within you. Waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Remember that there is no happines in having or in getting, but only in giving. Reach out. Share. Smile. Hug. Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself." - Og Mandino

i am embarking on a journey to find my happy place and pick up the pieces of my fragmented self.

this past few weeks have been taking its toll on me. i have been spreading myself too thin and now im hanging on to my sanity by the tips of my fingernails. ive often wondered why whenever my friends would confide in me about their problems i would often end up being bothered about their problems as well.

im trying to find a coping mechanism for this weird glitch in my system. but since i havent found that yet, am suffering in silence.

whenever im depressed and bothered i would just go sleep it off. but lately i have been losing sleep and i havent been my usual effusive self. i also tried to go to my happy place, but it has been elusive to me as well.

i kinda figured out that the reason why im pretty depressed and disappointed is because i dont have time for myself anymore. i devote most of my time lately trying to resolve other people's issues (may it be my friends or clients)

so this is the solution that i came up with.

im eschewing all my friends for the moment and go find my happy place. i dont even want to think of which ball i need to drop, so im dropping all the balls that im juggling altogether.

now the main problem here is that i dont know how to go to my happy place. coffee and ciggies arent as effective as they used to be...

well day one for the search for my happy place has been going relatively well. im kinda happy that i was able to talk to my wonderful wonderful wonderful best friend Dodie. but im eschewing him as well for this soul search.

i miss myself. i miss smiling. i miss laughing. i miss my happy place.

End of Day Happy Place Search Result: one step closer to my happy place. Thanks Dodie. Love you so much Bes.

oOo

"Zen is the practice of moment by moment awareness... The past is done, the future is not yet here, neither of those two are real. Only the present matters" - Zen

down the drain

i feel pretty down.

im astounded why im affected but well... let me just wonder for awhile...

im disappointed as well.

i hate this feeling.

why the hell am i so affected about what other people do?

these are the times that i hate being an empath and i hate having friends.

this always happen.

whenever any of my friends would do something stupid/bad i feel bad as well. its like I was the one that did the deed.

bwakananginangshetpakurleche.

i really need a world class SWEAR WORD for this type of letdown. so that i can vent out...

i feel so let down.

whatever.

whatever.

whatever.

whatever.

whatever.

bite me

my drama queen persona has once again been trying to push herself up to the surface. as much as possible i try to keep her under the radar because I become this girly girl that keeps on ranting about everything that doesn't go MY way.

today Robbie called me up. I told him that P.B and I were going to hang out on Saturday night. I also told him that I might bring P.B as well to my Bessy's birthday shindig at this bar somewhere down South.

Robbie goes.. "okay. I won't 'not' allow you to go to the party and hang out with P.B. you're old enough to know what is right or wrong."

so I'm like.. "what the... what do you mean by "you're old enough to know what is right or wrong" ?'

Robbie: "you know what I mean by that."

Me: "Spell it out for me."

Robbie: "I find it inappropriate for a girl to spend time alone with another guy overnight. be it a boyfriend or a boy-friend."

Me: "...and I thought you knew ME..."

Robbie: "...and I thought YOU knew me..."

Me: "I do. I just don't appreciate the way that you delivered that line."

Robbie: "Kilala natin pareho si P.B. You both had a thing for each other when you were with Nathan and he was with Cheyenne. I'm not comfortable knowing that you're spending the night with him."

Me: : "I stay overnight at Howie's but you don't mind that. Double standards eh?"

Robbie: "You frustrate me so much. Howie and P.B are two different people. I don't need to explain further. YOU KNOW what I'm trying to point out here."

Me: "whatever..."

Robbie: "I hate it when you do that! I'm your bestfriend.. your BOYRFIEND... don't treat me like your little friends or your "kids". You frustrate me so much! You know what, I'm not sorry that you agreed to take our friendship to the next step, but I'm sorry that I've been expecting more from you now that you're my girlfriend. Maybe it was really wrong of me to push you into entering this relationship. Let's rethink this ok. So would you be ok if we sorta cooled things off?"

Me: "oh... sure."

oOo

The transcription above isn't verbatim but that's what I remembered from the conversation.

I didn't exactly think that Robbie breaking up with me would hurt, but it does! *sigh* why the hell do I do stupid things anyway... :'(

nothing really.

last sunday was my maternal grandfather's 30th death anniversary. so after church my mum and i went to visit. call me strange but i do enjoy visiting my gwakong's mausoleum because its very peaceful there.

on our way to the semetery, my mum was pretty worried because she didnt know if the mausoleum got hit bad. turns out, it came out unscathed. watermarks were the worst damages that appeared.

thats my gwakong, isnt he handsome? the lady on the left was his 2nd wife, while the lady on the right was his 1st wife. my gwama (maternal grandmother) was his third wife.

the blue background actually symbolizes the sky. you cant actually see the small chips of mirrors that are embedded in the wall, but they're there. its so pretty when you actually see it in person. its like the night sky with stars twinkling.

oOo

im uberly happy today because my friend Shelley gave me a new set of dishes... it actually came at the right time because i just bought myself a new set of cookware. arent the dishes that she gave me very pretty? the serving bowls, the dishes and the soup bowls are all in white... a pretty pretty matched set.

these are my new pots and pans... thats my bonsai cactus.. *snicker* looks sad doesn't it? im so excited to cook on my new cookware. i actually bought wooden spoons so that i wouldn't scratch off the TEFLON coating on the pans.

my new dishes!!!

oOo

just got back from the rec room, watched Matrix (Reloaded) with Bessy. while watching the movie, he was eating the salad that i bought for him. ^_^ he was insulted at every comment that i threw at the movie since according to him, Matrix is one of his all time favorites.. *snicker*

tres lame! kidding...

anyhoo, `nuff said... gotta log-in in 10 minutes. ^_^