wondering out loud...

i know its not safe to assume... but it seems that once again that i am being left out of something the world is offering.

i have always been a late bloomer.

had my first REAL boyfriend when i was 18 (coz technically Aeric was a "childhood" boyfriend so it doesnt count... :lol:)

realized that i was a girl when i was in 3rd yr college. by that i mean that was the only time that i used make-up, had girl-friends and did the whole giggly girly bonding thing...

lets just say... i had a lot of firsts a little late in my life.

lately... ive been feeling a little left out once again.

ive always wondered why whenever the "BER" season comes round, i become manic depressive.

everytime i look at my nephews and nieces, i have this strange ache at the bottom of my heart. i dont know what it is... everytime they look at me with wonder in their eyes... they make me feel like im the only thing in their world and everything in that world is absolutely beautiful.

ive been feeling pretty lonely lately... i dont know why... i have wonderful friends... a strange, quirky yet loving family... what more can i ask for?

i dont know...

maybe i just need someone to talk to?

somebody i can hug....

somebody who will just be there...

any volunteers?

anybody?

:'(

oOo

Her error is believing she can only love him with the soul.
-J. Neil Garcia's "Psyche"-